I have never felt more alone.
Maybe I’m scared. No, I am scared. I’m scared to let anybody in. I’m afraid that if I do, they too will leave me. And I will keep feeling the same emptiness that is currently sinking my heart. Why can’t I let you go ? Why is it so hard ? How is it so easy for you to move on, yet I can’t. Because every thought, every word, every moment that occupies my mind, has to do with you. If only this, if only that. If only I could go back and change myself then. If I could undo every action. If I could just start over.. When I’m not thinking about you, it’s always the damn ‘if only’s. I miss you. More than I’ve missed anyone else.
